The Legend

It was a rainny Friday morning and I was late for the exam. I stucked in the traffic jam and I know I could easily screw the paper if the traffic didn't get better. It was my bad day, really a bad one. While waiting for the traffic to ease, I turned on the radio and first thing i knew was Michael Jackson passed away. I stayed calm, what 1st came into my mind was the weirdo is now died and well not like I listen to his song anyway.

I knew I was rude.

Reached home and get a hot shower. I got really emo that day because I screwed the particular paper and I know I deserved it. Thats what happened loiterring around during exam period. Ahhhhhh, i miss putrajaya and all sorta yamcha session =(

Where were I? Oh ya, I got really emo over that stupid paper and I will probably fail it wtf. MJ's news floating around the air, newspaper, TV, MSN, CNN even youtube. Clicked into one of his video in youtube, the next second I knew I was stunned infront of the lappie. Ya, his performances were good, indeed he deserved the lable of the king. Sigh. I was keen to know more about him so i googled, and what I got are issues about plastic surgery.

Why was his chain got a 'lubang' eh? hmmm..

Michael Jackson, one of the most widely beloved entertainers and profoundly influential artists of all-time, leaves an indelible imprint on popular music and culture

I watched his interview and I got emo over it for few days, even now. I knew I was wrong. I should not regard him as a weirdo. =( He went for nose job, it was all because of his dad insulted him by saying he had a flat nose. He hated his dad. He was a good father. He loves his children, and over-protected them. That's why we were always seeing his children with a mask or veil all the time. Besides, he loves kids so much. He was kind and thoughtful to build a Neverland for the children. A place with playground, theme park, it is like a wonderland for children. He won a 'Grammy Award' for being the kind-est person/artist in the world. Who can ever take over his place? Let it alone be the music. I don't care what people say about him, he is now dead. It's the time for all the negative issues to get over. He deserves the fame, he deserves nothing less.

Sigh. You know I am seriously emo over all these I don't know why. It feels like, something is missing. I watched his performance over the youtube, itune is playing his songs but the fact he is no longer in this world. Weird. These kinda feeling is hard to describe. Even a little girl cries after listen to his song, 'Heal The World'. She told me, his song is simply great that makes her cry. She is only 6 and she could tell me this. I am impressed, indeed amazed.

She is Paris Jackson in Michael's memorial service. It is heart breaking to see this and I teared so badly =( Ahhhhhhhhhh! Emo go away.

I am now understand why are people adore him so much. You will always be in our heart Michael. You are the King of Pop.

R.I.P

Once again,

Not everything need to be told.

I do not owe anyone an explaination.

Can you please stop giving me more troubles people? I am getting sick of all these issues. Please! I beg for you pardon. This is the last time i say it again, do not put your judgement on me base on your assumption. It does not work in this way.

No matter what's going to happen, whether I can accept it or not, I am ready for it. Yeahh, I am seeing it coming but I can't even avoid it from happening. What I can do? Break the bond amongst? Lose a friend? Cry all day night? I don't know. What I know is I am appreciating every good moments together =)

P/s: Ah Lin, you better give yourself a big tight slap for thinking too much. You know you love me!

No good

Sigh. I am feeling weird inside. Why huh? Why am I always thinking too much? Why am i always grumbling for things being? Why am I never satisfied with the surrounding? Why is my life so miserable? =(

I know I know.. I am very blissful.
I know I know.. I am very luccky.
I know I know.. I am just on another ranting mood.

But why? For thing which is going to happen, I think I utterly deserved it . Eventhough I know the problem is with me, I am still not getting over it? Why huh? Life isn't all about blaming but to move forward. Ahhhhhhhhhhh. When am I going to learn my lesson? HUH?

Fine.. I am going to have William later. T.T and, I have gained weight, for like, really gained quite alot. Can you see the rational behind me? No right? because I don't think I have. Fuck this shit. Fuck my life!

If life is never good for me, what is good then?

Consolidation

Slept at 5am this morning
Woke up at 9am
and awake until now just to complete consolidation.

=(

Conso dear conso,

Do i have sufficient time to finish the journal entries, worksheet and financial statement during exam?

Sighhhh!

People says conso is hard, but i don't think so.
It is all depends on do you have sufficent time to prepare for it.
Obvious, I am one of those last mins freak.
I am trying my best to chunk in everything in to my mind and i know it doesnt help at all.

=(

Conso oh dear conso, can you love me too, please?


On the other side of note, someone is going to be daddy soon! =) Congrats kai yeh!

huhuhu

-I want a shopping spreeeee!

-I want redbox

-I want a trip to somewhere with beach and sunshine

-I want pasar malam

-I miss outing all sort of outings =(

-I seriously need to catch up with my friends. I miss them

-I want lok lok and steamboat.

-I want yam cha with the long as roti tissues

-I want go to Cameron Highland, Bukit tinggi, Genting for chilling

-I need a hair extension. The hair takes forever to grow

-I have to go to study now =(

H1N1 you suck. I can go to Bangkok no more.

Book you suck. My eyes power has increased.

Exam you suck! I feel lifeless.

T.T

The Queenie 21st!

I hate exam. I dowan to sit for exam. I can't even concentrate while doing revision. This explained why I am here, writing such a long ass entry. It is so time consuming but i am not gonna care. I just want to run away from book. T.T

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I feel old. I been living for 21 years. Sighhhh. That also another sign of time flying and we are getting older. =(

Oh well, lets do a photos overloaded entry aite!

1. Parents

Dad bought me a gold bracelet as my birthday gift. I know it looks very out of fashion but I will still love it since it is from dad. =) Our family is kinda traditional in the sense that we don't usually celebrate all this birthday thingy.

Mommy get me this! Sigh! how sweet my parents is. =)

Once Liang told me that, I should spend the 21st with my parents because we chinese are conservative creatures. 21st is not only implying a legal age, but also remarking parents' commitment to the family, love to their children for the past 21 years. I know it is uneasy for both my dad and mom to engage and walk the journey together this far. Their daughter is finally grow up, 21 years old. I can feel my dad is happy. Thanks dad and mom, for bringing me to the world, for given up so many things just to bring me to who I am today. Love*

2. The may babies

Date: 17/05/2009

Venue: Las-Carretas, Subang Taipan.

The place

This was suppose to be a 5p2 gathering sort of thing by gather the may babies, who is Wei Liang, Jimmy, Alvin and me. Anyhow, the same gang turned out that night. Sigh. Can see how unimportance are we in 5P2-ian's heart wtf kidding aite!

Yups, the gangs

I love the hat very the much!

Piggy and Me

The cake looked nice but tasted yucky

The usual us LOL with the mexicon flag..swine flu wtf

Green, white, red!

Appreciate that!

Thank you!

For Alvin boy

Jimmy's present

and Liangie's

Liangie's present fitted me damn well wtf =(

my watch and Alvin

this explained the white roses i got in later part. Call me rose wtf

The men!

Alvin and Chemmy

Next up, Barcelona. It was kinda stupid to go Barcelona on Sunday because no people, no club mood but a drunken me. Sighhh.. Karma!

This explained what happened to me in the rest of the night.

Arguing with CT and he couldn't stand with my fierceness and aggressiveness WTF so he surrendered LOL

Ah Ong, me and Maggie in the loo <3

Jimmy, me and Chie Theng

Jack and Rose

Liangie and me..sigh..damn the drunk!

kudos to Peik Sheannnn!

Evon and Me

Lucky lah youuuuu Ng Chie Theng

I couldn't even walk straight to the car park. Sigh. and i vomitted thrice in the toilet after reached home. And when my mom entered to my room I showed her what present i got for my birthday WTF and can still even talked to her as if I was ok. She went off to her room and i ran to the toilet and continue vomitting WTF sighhh. And she never knew i was actually drunk that night. Sigh. I salute you PS.

3. 21st countdown celebration

Date: 27/05/2009 (Happy birthday Tsae Yun, the twin sister)

Venue: Twenty-one kitchen + bar

<3

They are not telling me how they bring in the flower and cake! Ishhhh..

The ladies.. We are no longer girl WTF or maybe women is more appropriate?

Ah Ong and me

Me and the non-existence cleavage *blushhh*

the women wtf LOL

'twenty-one degree hot or not'

'Eh, I am going to order the martini, the name sounds cool'

'We don't know how to drink one la, because it is too atas for us, better stick with beer lo'

' Atas? ngam me mahhh..ehhh 21st liao should go for sth atas i don't care'

'...........'

it turned out tasted like baby powder wtf. guess i should stick with my lemonade lo..

kita lagi!

Surprise surprise!

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwww! You both kissed a girl and you liked it WTF

This shows how much my friends love me. No kidding!

Alvin boy and me

Liangie and me

Chie Theng and me

The 29th and 28th.

27th is Tsaey and 30th is Kiat Ping. Thats why i am proud with my birthdate so much! =) May babies roxxxx..Geminians rule!!!!!

Evon and me

Loving each other

Pose with twenty-one proven i am in the legal age..

Pressieeeesss!

The groupieeee!

This year birthday seriously amazed me. I don't know they actually put in effort to surprise me. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I am the blissful girl ever with you people around! The roses, yea, it is white roses. According to them, white roses remark our pure friendship,like how much we meant to each other. Okayyy, the last sentence is my words wtf. and, the biggest present i got for this year is the CD ah ong made for me. Yup, some of you might be thinking how hard burning a CD can be, but for Sioky, it is like an mission impossible. She knows nothing bout computer and she doesn't online that often. She compiled all the songs, more to friendship that kind, and burn it into a blank disc. The disc is still playing in my car everyday. How sweet! The songs soothe my heart. As for Michelle, heyyyy, I am still waiting for your card hmph! Thanks for the brushes! Love it to bits. Lastly, I appreciate everyone's attentance on that day, everyone's involvement and effort in making the night a blast one. Without you people, where am I? Friends make life completed, like how you people do! Heart big time *Bow bow bow* THANK YOU!

4. My birthday

Date: 28/05/2009

Venue: Somewhere near my house

This is stupid! My car's rare mirror broken on my birthday itself. It happened the fella who cut the grass (call what? grasscutter wtf) accidentally cut on the rocks and the rock so happened hit my car;s rare mirror and hence the broken mirror Sighhh! and what is worse, the insurance expired 2 days after my birthday and it is kinda troublesome lah. Aiya, i don't know how to explain just it caused us some problems but it is now settled so yaaa,baby comes back to me!

Sad thing aside. My mom cooked a good meal since it was dumpling festival and so happen my birthday crashed in.Yeaa..stayed at home and spent the day with assignments and computer is not that bad after all. At least, the family who companied.

5. The CPL gang

Date: 29/05/2009

Venue: Chilies- Bangsar Shopping Complex

The celebration was suppose to be held on my birthday itself, but, it crashed with dumpling festival so I decided to reserve 28th and had a simple celebration with my family. Anyway, it was kinda pathetic because I spent my day rushing over assignment as the deadline was the day after my birthday, which is 29th. Sigh!

I had a great moment with them. =) No much surprises, no luxury pressie but the time spent together is what matters most. I hope we can make it years after years and i know it is uneasy =(

The pressie, the cake, the ballon (from CL) and most importantly the flower (my love).

I am seriously run out of word besides thank you!

Chester and Me

Jia Lene and me

Peng Guan and Me

You know what! I told my friends that the greatest present i want for this year is each of them to cium on my cheek LOL and yaaa, they did *sweet*

Embarrassing but yeaaa, it meant alot to me! I know i looked like a despo la wtf I DON'T CARE LAH!

Jia Lene came out with a brillian idea which was take a big bite of cream and put it on my face. Both of them even holded my hand just to make sure i don't slap or push them away sighhh! Sometimes, I have mixed feeling of having them by my sides WTF har har you know i am just kidding right? Laugh anyone? lolx..

the pendant from them!

Flower from Chesterbabi, Ballon from Darlin' Chien Lin, Pendant from all of them *Hug*

It felt awesome to walk around holding them with me? wtf bitchy me

I love this photo so much! I am like a superstar appraoched by my superfan wtffff kidding Le-neh

Next destination, hQnine @ TTDI plaza

Countdown to Nia Peng's birthday har har

Ahhh! yala yala, just 3 of us..

Smile pls smile!!! =D

Alcohol took place

I was not even drunk lo pls..the drunkard is the one next..

Yer yer yer...Shame on you bothhhh..

Kiat Ping asked me to tell them what I felt about the birthday celebration. I didn't send them any messages to tell them what I am thinking. It is due t0 I am actually run out of words. From the every begining, I was not expecting anything. I just planned to have a simple dinner with 4 of you so that we could laugh over all those lame jokes. But, it turned out to be a awesome night. Perhaps, surprise comes when you least expected. I knew you people were so busy during the birthday week. 4 assignments to deal and we had less time than others group because it crashed with our birthday. I am glad we could actually finish everything before the deadline. You people are the best!

I know alot of things happen in within and we had a hard time to cope with it. As i mentioned previously, things that don't kill make us stronger. I think, the hardship we gone through will not abolish the friendship, but to strengthen it, bring to a better us. and we are making it through right? Thank you very much! for all the efforts you people put it. I love you people always as I said many many many times b4. Friend for life!

Last but not least, the presents i got this year. Ahhhh! I am seriously enlighthen.

: )

Thank you my dear friend especially my dad and mom! <3

p/s: Oh ya, you love my nails? Guess who did that for me?? I love you Nia Peng Pok!

Letting go

Ohai..

Are you people interested on my birthday celebration? hmmm.. i bet no right since i've uploaded all the photos in facebook. Sighhh..facebook is the greatest media for stalkers i suppose aikss..

Well, i shall really blog about it seriously as it is my 21st and the greatest celebration ever! =)

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This is my blog, i can write whatever i want right? I can rank as if there is no tomorrow i don't care this is my blog. But somehow I am restricted to write certain things just because I don't know who is following my blog. It might be offensive to them or wat. Should i really bother it? I find it disturbing seriously aikss wthhhh..

To you,

I am letting go something prior to me. The feelings is just suck to max. It is like, I am losing some part really important in my life and the heart aches. I don't know if this is the right decision but I cant be bother too much bout it. This is my life and i have the right to control and live it to the best. I am seriously find myself irritated. My life been ups and downs because of you. Your message make up my day, you concern put smile on my face, your lame joke bring me out from sorrow.But anyhow, it doesn't matter to me anymore. The things i done is more than enough and beyond what i could afford. I know you know we are not gonna make it don't we? Maybe letting it go is not that bad after all. Once my friend told me, man and woman are impossible to be sucha a close-close-close very the close friend. There is nothing so called pure friendship exists btw 2 different gender because the closeness always bringing sorta false hope, sorta confused feelings. If you're not readily to start up a relationship, just lemme know instead of giving me all the false hope. I am tired. Tired of being emo, tired of wasting my time, tired of tearing, tired for everything being. I learn my lesson and I hope you too. I wish you well. Good luck, friend!

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For friends, 

I have alot of friends and all of them are equally important to me. But recently i find some issues really bothering me alot. I don't mind sharing my problems with you but sometime not every single things need to be told. I appreciate it very much because I know all of you worring me when I am emo but somewhat I just need to be alone. There are some kind of friends who stay beside me, lending me a shoulder when i cry but they will not question me. Perhaps they know if I need someone to talk to, i will automatically share with them and they are readily to listen. The excessive questioning is kinda disturbing and burden me. I have my downtime and i think you too. Don't apply your principal to me because what is best to you is not necessarily good to me. I feel rather breathless. I admit that we are fragile, and this is the fact. Nothing can be done to it. To my believe, if a friendship a solid enough, no matter what's going on, it wont be broken so easily.

Thank you Liangie for the bringing me for lok lok, A&W and Baskin in late night just to makesure I am not alone after all.

Thank you all of you accompanying me throughout the downtime. Tenji food is sux but the companies is great.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh..I miss lok lok now! =(

Life is never been easy, but I will try to keep it simple. 

从朋友到恋人究竟多少步骤

你永远只会静静看着我

期待着某天会萌芽结果

会不会就这样落空

我们是好朋友还只是好朋友

但朋友的线我们早跨过

我们是好朋友还只是好朋友

在这个位置等待了多久

Happiness

I wish it could last a little longer =)

The college-gang..

The bestie gang..

the CHS gang..

Opss.. i realise thee bestie gang and the chs gang are the same.. Ishhh!

Can someone tell me some other better words beside 'thank you'? I find this word bored loh.. Aisehhh!

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Before that, I thought I can take it as nothing actually happen, but, when it hits me, it is seriously striked me real hard. I hate this kinda feeling. All i can do now is to accept the fact and goes on with life.

I come to realisation that it is not simple at ALL. The undue feelings is pilling up high deep in my heart causes me almost breathless.. Sigh..What have I done previously deserve all these?Sooner or later i will feel numb i suppose. 

Very motivated to get my ass up to prepare for final. FML. All i wanna do is to get occupied. I hate all the spare time making me thinking too much, beyond what it actually happened.

Yup, as i always say, I am here whining because I am just too lucky for not knowing how lucky I am. =(

時間已做了選擇　什麼人叫做朋友

偶而碰頭　心情卻能一點就通

因為我們曾有過　理想類似的生活

太多感受　絕非三言兩語能形容

可能有時我們顧慮太多
太多決定需要我們去選擇
擔心會犯錯　難免會受挫
幸好一路上有妳陪我

Twenty one!

Finally, I joined the adulthood!

On my birthday itself, I was in the midst of rushing assignments, meeting the deadlines. Sigh! How pathetic. Yup, have a great celebrations this year, but I will only blog about it when i gather all the photos aiteee..=)

I feel I m blessed with love. Thanks for my friends for putting effort making up my day. I am seriously run out of words to say. Thanks for the wishes, thanks for all the comments, thanks for the pressies, thanks to daddy n mommy for bringing me to the earth!

I love you all always~

*bow*

Thank you!

You people make up who i am today! Cheers!

The end

Update: I beg for your pardon! 请不要对号入座, 更不要凭空想象.. It is all bout my inner feelings and got nothing to do with anyone. That's it! Thank you very much!

‘对你好不是必然,请不要把我对你的好当作理所当然！’

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waves goodbye!

*It is not end of the world. =)
*Thank you for letting me know that falling on you is never a easy thing.

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Try to get myself occupied by doing assignment.
Have tonnes of assignment to deal with.
It keeps me away from the sorrow temporarily.
It is just so wrong, and it will never be right.
I am run out of word to say.

Can I just delete every single part of the memory between you and I?
You just don't understand why am I being so gloomy over these small tiny things which has nothing to do with me.
Perhaps, you don't know all these small little tiny things is actually big for me.


Yea..Finally, it is the end, after 3 years..